I am living the dream that I had as a kid.
I always had a hard time answering the question: "what do you want to be when you grow up?" Because how can you choose one thing?
Whenever asked I would promptly answer: "well there are 7 days in a week, right? SoI'll be an astronaut on Monday, a lion tamer on Tuesday, a gardener on Wednesday, a roller coaster tester on Thursday, a mad scientist on Friday... And Saturday and Sunday will be busy because of all my adopted kids".
I was commended for my imagination and told I was ambitious.
But I don't know if I resonate with that word. Ambitious. Because ambition has to do with success. And success has to do with attainment, accomplishment, and achievement... and somehow those words never fully described what it is what I want to be doing.
I would substitute the word ambitious for courageous. For boundless and passionate. For hungry, authentic and unafraid. Because "ambitious" doesn't quite capture how badly I wanted to sink my teeth into life and taste the bone marrow at the center.
And now, as I look around at my life, I think I have indeed landed in the bone marrow center. I think I am home. Nestled in the truest expression of myself.
I haven't jetted to Mars yet, but I have time and space traveled every time I perform a role or invoke a world on a stage.
I can't say I've exactly tamed a lion, but I have committed myself to learning how to create spaces where people (and lions) can feel safe.
I don't garden in the traditional sense, but I do plant and grow communities wherever Igo.
I don't get paid to test roller coasters, but my entire life from morning until night (and even at night as my dream world is robust and nuts) is a roller coaster ride and it is all Ihave to do is buckle up for the ride.
I am not a mad scientist but... ok maybe I am a mad scientist.
I am not ready to adopt kids yet, but I do always feel like a mother.
I do not like answering the question "what do you want to be?" "what do you envision your goals are?" because life, LIFE, has consistently proved to be far more interesting than anything I could ever imagine. My only job is to let go and jump into the abyss.
And this is just the beginning.